For those of you who regularly read this blog, follow me on Twitter, Facebook or even know me will know I often like to have a rant or a moan about my asthma. I will rant about hospital care, useless doctors, NHS cutbacks, my health, the impact that asthma has on my life and my job. I may sound like a miserable sod and at times I am, at times I do get down about things and I need to let of steam, this blog and social media are great ways of doing that.
I am in a group of asthmatics that are classed as severe and this is not one of the ‘better’ types of asthma there is to suffer from and there appears to be less research into severe asthma than some of the other forms. Therefore I could class myself unlucky, I have an illness which is not likely to be curable in my lifetime, I suffer from regular attacks and hospital admissions and the damage it has done to me and my health has probably shortened my life span and has seriously impacted upon life. However I consider myself to be fairly luck when it comes to asthma, I will try to explain them below:
- There is always somebody worse off than me. Having spent time in hospital with other asthmatics, meeting other asthmatics and speaking with others on social media, my condition is not good and not particularly well controlled, but there are people out there who have things a lot tougher than me.
- I have never had to witness seeing a loved have a severe asthma attack, I have on a number of occasions seen the state of my family and friends when they have witnessed me having a bad attack and the look of worry and upset on their faces is awful. I could only imagine what it is like to see somebody that I cared for struggling to breathe.
- I have never had to deal with an asthmatic child or even deal with asthma myself as a young child. The worry this must cause parents is immense, the stress, the change of lifestyle etc. it is almost impossible to keep an eye on a child 24/7 but having to ensure that they have taken their meds and have their inhalers with them can’t always be easy.
- I have never lost a member of my family to asthma, I can only imagine what it is like to lose somebody to asthma, especially a child. I have spoken to numerous people who have lost sons or daughters through asthma. Truly heart breaking!
- I feel as though I have a decent understanding of my asthma and I also have a good idea of my limitations. I am happy to self medicate at home and in hospital and I am pretty good at managing / coping. I am lucky in that in between the bad times my health is ok, for example I don’t require oxygen at home.
- I still manage to hold down a fulltime job which is more than many with my condition can do. I still manage to have holidays (though not as often and not when I always want them but I still manage to get away). I still get to some football which I love, unfortunately the days of me playing are long gone but even though I am not well enough to get to every game, I still get to see a fair bit of the mighty Scunthorpe United! In other words, even though my condition has caused a lot of changes to my life, I still have a life which I enjoy!
- I have the full support of my family, my wife has often had it tough because of my health, especially when this recently coincided with her mother suffering from ill health and she lives a fair few hours drive away. My health has obviously impacted on her life as well as mine. My parents are always there for me as well and try to help out as much as possible.
- Despite my health issues and on occasions I have been very poorly I have managed to make reasonable recoveries
- Through asthma I have made numerous friends
- ……………….and possibly the most important, asthma gives me a great excuse to avoid some of the housework, I mean, how could anybody expect me to do the dusting!!!!
So yes I do moan , I do complain and I do get down about things but things could be worse and as I have already said, there is always somebody worse off then me!
Categories: My Asthma